On 19th July 2011, I suffered a subarachnoid haemorrhage after a rupture of a cerebral aneurysm. I spent 8 weeks in Royal Hallamshire hospital in ITU and HDU. I was transferred to the Northern General Hospital, Osborn 4 Neuro-rehabilitation ward for a further 7 months. I was unable to talk, walk and had weakness on my right side after a stroke. In February 2012, after a procedure called a Shunt, I began to walk & talk. These are my daily activities, memories and thoughts.....enjoy :)
Hello again, how are we feeling, I’m fantastique. The occasionally good words is “lets get our heads together” I love that sentence from Neurocare. I will make sure that the heads are together. I do think that we need to help ourselves and others, people will get there eventually. Dez is on his way through and we are going to Lady Bower for our day out today. I’ve been there before when I had a gorgeous brain. I remember the Dam and walking through the tree lined walkway. It feels that I was there just a few weeks away. Bloody hell, I do remember this? Its 07:55am, I have just got up and made my bed. This is going to be a Giel day. When the Dam was about to be borne, they had to get everyone from their houses in Lady Bower. That was the name of the town. They moved everyone further up the hill to be homed again. The old village was sunk in the water when the Dam was opened up. When the Dam uses too much water, the level goes down. Then you see the old spire top through the water. “Hello, welcome to my world”.
I was picked up at 12.30pm by Janiece, we then went over to the house and we collected David. Woohoo. I was going to get Dez, he had moved into the Jurys Hotel, in the town, Sheffield. I couldn’t wait. The last time he was in my company, I was a right mess. I had lots of tubes from my head, or should I say, my half of head. Ooops!!! Dez was waiting outside the front Hotel door and I got out of my seat in the car and I ran to him to welcome him, I couldn’t stop myself, there was so may cuddles and kisses, my happiness was sooooo happy, I loved it. How can you feel how happy you are!!! Well I know, I’m soooo happy I smile all the time, I have the biggest grin on my face, smile, smile, smile, smile. I have known about Dez coming for quite some time but I just thought that it would be a normal meeting, oops, no, I never knew that the love was sooooo happy. My eyes are dripping just now as I am crying as I am happily writing about him.
Well, go pictures go!!!! I love the pictures for my stories, it does make you smile, it makes me smile anyway, does it make you smile!!!!! Write and let me know eh!!!
When we get to Lady Bower we found the starter area, with the toilet and a nice cake, and coffee and tea, yummy, yummy. Dez and I got into our ususal chatter. We can’t stop, blether, blether, blether, and totally forget anyone else who is around us, blether, blether, blether again. We were looking out at the Dam, wow, the water looked so peaceful and quiet. That just remind’s me of the sights that I had before I had my Subarachnoid Brain Haemorrhage. It made me feel all pink and fluffy, hmmm.
I took a lovely picture, YES it was Janiece with her back, bum and legs walking, what a photographer I have become. Dez I laughed like a couple of kids, snigger, snigger, “Oops Sorry about the picture, hee, hee, hee” Dez and I tried to keep our mouths quiet. Shhhhh. The views were awesome, brilliant, cool, fantastique, leggy jelly sight.
Derwent is now a Dam Museum, the planes during the war times used this Dam for dropping their bombs, to have a trial bomb drop. They must have done a good job as we are all here now. Dez and I are great models for our picture story, hee, hee. The walks were lovely, breathtaking, I loved all the trees, I think Janiece was really in love with one of the trees, he, he, he. “It’s ok tree, we all love you too! I think I’ll call you Frank.Hmmmm.”
The stones were a great feature for us to look at and the trees about us, what a great way to relax, moving from one car parking to another. Park, get out of car, look, pictures, blether, sights, car, park, look, pictures, blether, sights, car, we had a nice routine and restful way to see everything. There was a bomber plane just above us in the lovely sky, I think he was doing some sort of flying entertainment for us in the sky. It looked cool. The Dam flyers, during the war, used to drop their bombs, the bouncing bombs on the Dam. They must have been quite good at this trial bomb session. Hey we are all here now.
Me with Charlotte & Jonathan
We did lots of stop and move to the next position. We went for a blether again, well I am the blether person, I will put up my hand for that. David took the picture for Charlotte and Johnathon, they wanted to have a physical picture for their memories. They wanted their picture and we wanted our picture, it was quite a good deal, here I go again, I blether to them and I asked them for a picture with me. I have given Johnathan my blob address so he typed it in his phone. I asked them if I could put their picture in my story and I say “Hello Charlotte and Johnathan, I hope you both had a wonderful cycle. Janiece and David and Dez say Hi also. I hope you both try and look at this and see your picture.” I have my subject waiting for my requests. Do you know I’m called Qeenie from my nurses in Osbourne. Now that I talk I do love it, I was lost for such a long time. My voice must have hidden somewhere in my brain for suck a long time. I shake head and say tut, tut, queenie, where were you hiding that beautiful voice. It’s a shame hiding this voice from the whole world, ( or maybe from my world). I thought David would fall into the Derwent Dam, he came running back as I was worried that he may fall in. Thank you Lord. He’s here now. Ahhhhhh.
We get ready to leave the Derwent Dam. Good bye water and trees.
Hello “ Lady Bower Pub “.
Janiece has booked us for our dinner, ( picture’s again) where is my MODEL !!!! We all got beautiful pictures of our food so I don’t mind sharing it with you all. LOVELY
We all ordered our starters. Dez and David has some Humous with Baba ganoush and Pitta bread. Janiece and I had a pork and chicken terrain with pistachio and with a large French stick. Wow, we all enjoyed our starter. Yummy, Yummy, Yummy, Yummy.
We moved onto our mains. Here goes. Now Dez has a lovely guinea fowl with cranberries in the wood for a lovely, gorgeous picture of his piece of food. He had carrots, string beans and new potatoes. David and Janiece both had the ladder steak with parmesan covered hassleback potatoes. I had a medium well fillet steak, chips, onion rings and peas. Pepper sauce came later.
I’m home and getting ready for bed now. I wont speak tomorrow as I am having a bedroom strike.
Morning world, I got up at 02:40am, it’s the routine again. I have just woken up, it’s 08:00am. I’ve got Will & Grace on the t.v. like I used to watch when I had the time off fromwork. I’m going for my breakfast now :) Breakfast was Weetabix and coffee and toast. I love my start to the new day, it’s gorgeous. I potteredaround and wrote a lovely 4 pages letterwriting to a friend. I can be quite intellectual.
When I finished my letter at 12:30pm I felt great. It’s good when you get the curlers off you’re head. I like remembering all the old saying’s.
I just stayed at home until Kai was coming for me. I was so excited when I seen him. I couldn’t stop hugging and kissing him. The last time he saw me I had mydruggy needles beauty. I do try to be my best. Ahem. Poor Kai, I couldn’t even say hello. I’ve made up for it now. I love saying Hello, Hello, Hello.
Kai-Uwe Stutzkeitz and myself went to the Bolsover Castle. This is my 3rdjourney to the Castle, I do like living just beside it. It is so calming on you’re brain, it keeps you aware of all the things that happen to you. Hey I have £1:30 can I maybe buy myself a Castle???? Maybe I should try that eh!!
When Kai-Uwe Stutzkeitz and I got into the receptionwe both went up for a cappucinno and we had a carrot cake slice each. Wow that was yummy. I started talking to the couple on the next table. They were Jackie and Nigel,Jackie loves working on her plants, she must be a great gardener. Well done Jackie. Nigel is a volunteer for the Maston Vale Forrest. Well done to your volunteer Nigel. We had a nice wee blether again. I just can’t help this talking again. I never know what my brain is up to, dear, dear, dear. We went back to the reception and Kai-Uwe Stutzkeitzpaid for my entry. I thank you sooooo much :)
Hey I wonder where he picked her up?????Kai does the good exercises phhh*** I did try the brilliant stallion mare horse. We got the scale of our castle and got a lovely tree to lie there shaded from the beautiful sunshine. Kai is good on a fire and he likes the bread ovens. The scenes inside and outside are gorgeous. The pictures on the ceilings and walls were pretty cool. The garden was lovely too, there has been so much from these rooms and painting’s.
As we were almost finished from our Castle journey, Kai still wanted to climb, climb, climb.
We eventually got back to the reception and met Aimee Dobbs, she works there. Aimee told me that she read my blob, her dad is not very well. I can tell there is a lot of love there, she reads my story to her dad. I’d like to know that he enjoys it. I like doing my wee stories of my day and I put on the pictures.
We both went home for our pasta dinner, I was good, I was on my diet Irn Bru and Kai bought them some vino, cheers all around the world. It was very good as I rang the door at 8:30pm, I got home at the exact time. Wow I’m good, thank you all xxx.
Last nite as I was finishing my writing my subject brought me up a nice toasted teacake to go with my coffee. Hmmm that was beautiful, what a nice way to sleep.
This was the usual again, up out of bed, toilet, back to bed, sleep again. It was 04:40am for relieving myself. I have a good system with the bladder now. I have great dry sleeps now, I feel so proud of myself. I should give myself a great big clap on my back for all this. I started this writing at 06:35am, I just love writing all of my thoughts, feelings, emotions. I just love writing, it’s great. Do you know that when I had my Subarachnoid Haemorrhage I was trying to give up my fags! At work I would have my cigarette patches on my arm, then I would take my patch off and puff a fag. Wow that was good, when I finished it I put my patch back on then back into work. It was quite funny watching me doing this giving up system. Ha ha ha. I wouldn’t even think of smoking any more, yuck, yuck, yuck. I just don’t like the smell anymore. Imagine now that I did smoke before and now I know that I did before but I love being the healthy “queenie”...It’s now 07:20am so I’m away for my breakfast, see you all later. I had a healthy weetabix and 2 slices of toast with my Robinsons lemonade diluting juice.
I organised with the staff that I was making my own dinner today. I’m going to make bolognaise for myself. I have looked through the kitchen pantry and fridge and I have mince, onions, Italian herbs, peppers, mushrooms, garlic, Wow the only thing I need to buy is a tin of tomatoes. I think I worked well on my dinner plan and it will be a nice to just have a wee walk for a tin of toms. It’s 08:55 and now I’m off for my shower and have some excersises again. The more I do it, the stronger I become.
On the kitchen board I wrote again.
“I really love having my voice back,
I need to learn to shut up sometimes,
I talk, and talk, and talk, and talk,
I will get better and quieter,
Rachael has been so good to me,
Thank you Rachael xxx Pauline
I went to lunch and had the spicy chicken fahitahs and salad it was lovely.
I waited after my lunch for Leanne to do the Physio excercises. When she arrived I told her that my right leg does not belong to me, it feels that it belongs to someone else, it feels like I have a longer right leg. I thought it maybe my leg is working so much to come back to me. I did a walk along the corridor for Leanne, she wanted to know how good my walking was. My walking was perfect. I am back together ”so far”, thank god. I’m going to take a picture of my “lift”, my insole for my heal.
I went to cook my spaghetti bolognaise for my dinner. I started at 4:15, then I finished just after 5pm. It was so good making my own dinner. It makes me feel so wonderful that I make things again. Ahhh. I have left some bolognaise for tomorrow lunch. My friend Kai is coming to see me, I can’t believe that he last seen me when I was so bad with tubes coming out of my neck, head, and anywhere else you could imagine eh…..
When Kai arrives at lunch time I will Say “hello”, Walk to the kitchen, god this will be so amazing, I can hardly believe it.
Paul the gardiner came to finish the front garden. I chapped the front door to attract his attention and I asked if I could take a photo again. He said “YES” It’s now 9pm and I’m going to stop for our day, I will have a nice chilling nite now, so I will catch you all tomorrow. ;-)