I seem to fall every day!
There has been lots of hiccups in life of late!
Why is my life full of gaps!
Where am I going?
What to do?
Is this my life!!!.................All these gaps on every page!
When I started to try to fill in the gaps in my family life; there was a brilliance of sunshine, love, light and the most important thing is the knowledge, the truth and the hurt.
Not one of us is perfect..............not even I !
I'm the most un-perfect sick person who has dragged all of my family around my heels as I have kicked my heels and used colourful language and yes........I do react back to the words that they give to me for me to react quite un-ladylike to bring things alive that has been hidden in the silent mind.
Please bear with me here, as the letter was sent via Facebook and this is the way that it arrives here, it's quite amusing to me as this is partly like my life...........all one sided !
C'est la vie......Such is life !
|This has been my life up until now..........It's time to change for the future.|
You feel and sense new things for the first time.
Your becoming alive and regrowing all over again.
People can't physically see what is there only I can feel through the fear of falling down again.
Life can move forwards, no holding me back !
It's a new start for me, my future, my new life.
I throw out the old and make a new beginning.
My Family, is the most precious thing to me, we are 7; seven siblings, a big family full of chaos, laughter, up's & down's, the regular chaotic lives of rearing children and grandchildren.
I've pulled us all apart with my Traumatic Brain Injury.
I've got plenty plasters and ointment to heal us all together, join us together the way we were.
I've had the sick, tired, angry, upsetting lovely brain who is coming home.
......Never give up on the family.................I've never given up on them all.
We proudly deserve to be this chaotic rebelious Quinn Family from Easterhouse in Glasgow......
Ah what great memories about our youth, the camping in Cornwall, Devon.
How many of us in the brown Zodiac Zepher car as we tumbled together into each others legs, arms, poked the ribs, stuck our fingers in someone elses nose, feet up in the air as some of us were on the floor where your feet should be.
We sang our favourite song:-
"Why, Why, Why, Delilah.....dee dee dee dee dee dee deeee!"
When we were doing the mammoth long congested drive from the top of the world to the bottom of the world, other drivers must have looked into the car in amazement at the amount of children in the back seat as Monty, being the baby, had the best view along with the room as she sat on mums knee in the front seat. The front seat was the same as the back seat.....a continuation like the family.
When we showered on the camping area, we Ladies or Laddies sat outside the laundry room as we dried our long tangled hair from the big tumble dryer vent in the sunshine.
We knew even then how to look after the pennies as the pounds looked after themselves.
A big family knew exactly what to do being the largest family that I've ever heard of, until now!
I remember families of even 12, yes twelve children being as boisterous as we were which was a great foothold to keep us stable in life.
LIFE IS BACK !
I'm Back !
Thankyou my boisterous, rebelious, caring, loving Family.
Love from Pauline Quinn XXX